[she's so forward and earnest in everything she does that it throws Louis off guard for a second. where he's from, it helps to be guarded. getting close to people usually ends in sadness... but he's been learning to accept it. it's been a long and hard path for him. he remembers Coco chiding him back at home base: "normally, you've got eyes like a dead fish. but now, you actually seem alive for once."

have they changed him so deeply that he can stand to be around Yona without guilt or apprehension? he asked her for help, it's a step.]

That I'm sorry.

[he's also way, way too hard on himself.]

I know that Death came for me once already, and he didn't get what he wanted out of me. My actions have caused countless people... [he sighs, even he realizes that he's being fatalistic.] ...have caused countless people who should've rested peacefully to continue suffering.